I FUCKED UP. (kinda) NO, I DEFINITELY FUCKED UP.

Hey, llamas!

Guess who is the worst friend in the world?! In case you didn't get that, it's me.

So I snapped at a friend today.  Pretty badly.  And they stopped responding to me at all.  Sure, they may have other stuff to do today and they aren't ignoring me on purpose but that doesn't mean that I haven't been horrible and awful and a bitch.

It turns out, their whatsapp stopped working, and they're not angry with me or anything.  So.  THANK YOU GOD.  Because, I physically feel sick when I upset my friends.  I guess it doesn't help when I'm already stressed out and tired and meh.  I don't even have a conscious reason for being a bitch - my friends probably have theories.  Oh, and it's half term... so..? *insert shrugging face emoji* WHY AM I STRESSED?!

Anyway, I realised that I take all my friends for granted.  So.  To all of you reading this, whether you're my internet llamas, or my real life llamas that put up with all my shit.  Thank you.  Thank you for being my friend. For always being there.  For picking me up when I am down and if that doesn't work, lying down with me and keeping me company because everyone knows that misery loves company.  Thank you for being as crazy as me and for NOT being as crazy as me, and thank you for helping me push towards success, rather than letting me be complacent in myself and letting me coast through life.  So. THANK YOU.  Because you guys keep me from being locked up in a mental ward.

So, if you're reading this, even though I can be the worst friend in the world, thank you for forgiving me.  And thank you for understanding, even when I don't.  Love you (in a friend way *rolls eyes*).  Raffi loves you more than me though.

Well.  Llamas, it's been fun... It really hasn't because I still kinda feel like crying and I don't know why.... But thanks for reading.  Even if it doesn't make sense.

Shenaya xx

P.S. here are some photos that are all artsy and autumny (I am aware that is not a word).

Ok, so my laptop hasn't downloaded them from my phone... Once again, I THANK YOU APPLE, DAMMIT IF THIS WAS SAMSUNG....OR WINDOWS.... (I don't mean that my beautiful electronics - please don't take revenge).