Friends

Hello, my disturbed llamas!!

So today's post (actually I'm writing this at 23:30 on 15th August) is about friends and friendship.

I realised that all of a sudden all my friends would be spreading out and be gone for long periods of time.  And that makes me sad.  Very sad.  I mean, did I get to spend enough time with them?  Was I appreciating them to the level that they deserved? Was it really worth arguing over where to eat lunch that one time?  I JUST DON'T KNOW.  And that worries me.

Without my friends, I probably wouldn't be where I am today.  They keep me grounded and humble, happy and sad and most of the time vaguely annoyed.  But they've supported me and helped me.  And I'm going to miss all of them.  Those friends that are close will still be with me for the important events (e.g. I decided to run 5K and now I CAN'T FEEL MY LEGS, HELP ME) and the friends that I no longer talk to will be in my memories ( R.I.P. former friendships), I will grow and so will they.  I guess I just feel a little melancholy.  The group that I found myself belonging to, will now no longer be a group.

A friend of mine had been talking about what she appreciates and is thankful for about our group.  She said that I'm the person that she can be 100% crazy with and not be judged.  I liked that.  A lot.  I'd never realised that she felt like that and it made me proud to be her friend and to be able to give her some support, it also humbled me to think that when she thought of me, she thought about the support I give her in allowing her to be herself.  People have a way of surprising you and I guess, that's kinda part of friendship too.

You feel proud, and humbled, and happy and sad, and everything in between, because that's what friendship is.  All these random emotions with people who just understand YOU and are there to feel those things along with you.

Friendship could be so many things, but that's sort of what friendship is to me.  I don't know.  I just needed to vent. So, thank you Internet friends.

Shenaya xx

P.S. why don't you let me know your ideas of friendship?